brittany_ellis

Its been a while

Mon, 02 May 2005 00:00:49 GMT

Its been a while since I last updated...sorry. But, anyways a lot has beeing going on. Graduation is finally coming up and my brother is going ot be moving out soon :(. Other than that school has been shit b/c they have been craming in everything they can before finals and so that basicly sucks. But, other than my heart fully being destroyed this month, and becoming numb to all feelings lol I have had a great month. No but really last month was awful for me I had the worst things happen to me, and I deserve for things to get better. I can't wait for me to move on from certain things, and to get over certain people, personally its just about damn time for things to change for me. Instead of shit always happening to me, for good things to happen for me. I guess I just can't wait till summer, b/c I can finally get away from all the bullshit that goes on everyday, drama from school, and shit from the north carolina area. But, anyways I love all of you who have been there for me thank you for everything.
peace out naggers
-b

17 days till Prom

Wed, 06 Apr 2005 22:06:12 GMT

Only a few more days till prom, and to be honest I wasn't really worried about finding a dress or getting a date. Not even now am I. After only one day of looking I found a dress I love! I just need to find the shoes and maybe someone to go with. However; today I was asked but a guy (I am not going to say any names) he is really nice and everything, and a good friend however; I just don't think I would have a great time like I would with someothers I had in mind of going with. Simply b/c we have never hung out outside of school before and generally he just isn't my type. But, hopefully I will find someone to go with that I think I would have a great time with if not I will just stick to going with one of the groups of girls, no matter what I always have fun with them. But, for the most part prom is about the after-party anyways so I am really not even worried about it. Anyways, not a lot else going on I have a damn saturday work detail the night of prom, early in the morning which sucks! I just can't seem to get out of being in trouble all the time. Tomorrow I have to go to honor council b/c i was "cheating" by letting someone copy my homework but whatever, no big deal I guess I will just have to end up writing a paper of sorry-ness, and then writing a thing on honor. No big deal. Anyways I guess thats really all for today...
xoxo
-B

Finally Home!!!

Wed, 06 Apr 2005 02:13:18 GMT

Yesterday around 8:00 pm I finally returned home from my awful trip in Tenn, and Georgia. Let me just say the entire time I was on that trip...I froze my arse off!!! It was soo cold. Other than that Jamie and I mainly hung out and we killed the other team in paintballing. Anyways I just am glad I am back at home. I am not looking forward to going to school tomorrow though, I am kinda getting used to just not doing anything. But, I guess I am going to go b/c I have no sleep at all!
-Brittany

clASS trip

Fri, 01 Apr 2005 01:00:18 GMT

Hey today is the day before the class trip w/ the 9th & 10th graders. To be honest I am not looking forward to it at all!!! It Jamie wasn't going I think that I would be completely by myself the entire time honestly. So thank goodness for that. Anyways packing all the crap for the trip was pretty easy simply b/c 1...I don't have anyone to impress 2...we will be gone for like i dont knoe 4 days if even so I am going to pack lite, so I don't have to tote around a huge ass bag of crap I don't need. Anyways, other than that Jamie and I went tanning today, I always feel like I am still white for some reason though...I am sure I will turn tan one of these days!!! Anyways other than that nothing else has really been going on so I guess i just updated for no reason really. Michelle hope that I gave you a nice laugh for the day. xoxo
love you
peace out
love always
forever yours
never forget me

-Brittany Elisabeth Ellis the III

Losing a best friend

Tue, 01 Mar 2005 01:55:07 GMT

For the past few weeks, things have happened that are completely not normal to me, and still aren't normal to me at all. I normally have always been a very excepting person as far as phases, and changes that people go through, but it seems these days some of the changes occuring around me seem to be getting more difficult to adjust to, like friends. In my opinion a friend to me isn't a huge job, it isn't something someone has to completely go out of their way for. Its as simple as listening to eachothers problems, or just being there for eachother during the really fun times, and the really hard times. But, when did a friend become such a hard job to maintain? When was it that you had to really be careful of anything you said or did, because that very same friend could turn around and one day become a complete stranger to you. These things are situations I dont think I will ever understand. You begin to ask yourself questions like...was it something I did or said, was it me who changed or did they? But, I have taken a hard look at who I am and I am the same. I've been the same me forever, alot of people say when you leave highschool you normally only keep 2 or 3 of your friends really close to you afterwards. That comment never made much sense to me simply because of the fact that there was never a doubt in my mind that the people who are becoming more and more like strangers to me everyday, would I ever leave highschool not still being best friends with. I guess all I do at this point is wait it out and see what happens, in most situations I have noticed its really the only thing you can do, or accept it and move on. I find that my weakness is accepting new things, or ideas, or even changes in my friends, and that maybe something that will hurt me further down the road. However, I have been upset, confused, and just flat out annoyed for too long so I guess the question that I have been asking myself is, shoudl I just let it go accept it and more on? Or do I talk to my friend about it, and see if it gets me anywhere at all (even though its high unlikely) What do you think?

How the hell do we do it?

Thu, 24 Feb 2005 03:27:00 GMT

If your like me and have the type of days where you are going from the very time you get up from the time you go to bed, sometimes you may ask yourself how the hell do I do it? Between school, work, homework, and tutoring (yes I suck at spanish so I need a tutor.) But, anyways it just seems to me I barely have enough time anymore to just relax... I finally just got a minute to myself today even though its like 10:15pm now. However, I am going on a weekend vac tomorrow to New York which I am really excited about simply because I have never been there before. I leave tomorrow after school and will not be back until late Sunday night. I am so looking forward to shopping, but most of all not doing any shit homework! Anyways, enough of my complaining of how busy I always am. Spring break is not like a few weeks away and I think I am finally going to visit my Mom and little sister. I haven't seen them in months and miss them sooo much! You guys may be like omg I would love to get away from my Mom she drives me insane, but for those of you who know me the best know that my Mom isn't quite like the average Mom and is the funnest person in the world to be around!! Today however, I finally got to talk to one of my best guy friends in the world Larry he is quite the hottie however, he is almost hopefully soon going to be taken..!! But, anyways I guess that is all for now I will write back when I am home from New York love all of you and HAPPY BIRTHDAY MERRIS, your finally 16!!!
-love you
britt

v-day is awesome

Tue, 15 Feb 2005 02:09:07 GMT

I love valentines day..but i dont love when people dont call you and say i love you happy v-day....:) but all is good. xoxo have a good v-day everyone
-brittany
p.s.
tomas quite disses on the v-day it loves you so love it back

The Weekend

Tue, 08 Feb 2005 02:59:01 GMT

Hey Bitches, well it was an awesome weekend yet again...besides the fact that I am sick that was the only let down but other than that I think it was pretty good. Lets see Friday night I checked out early which maybe I already told you about and chilled with Tyler at his house for a few hours, on Saturday I went out to eat with Michelle, and hun wout with Ali we went out to eat, went the marde gras thing was was fun...and then just chilled at her house for a while after the last boys basketball home game, which was fun b/c Ali is a total blast!! Then Sunday I hung out with Michelle we went to go see Boogeyman which was scary as hell...yes Michelle you screamed so don't lie and tell everyoen you weren't scared...but at the ending I think we both were fine with it, it was pretty good. Then we just chilled at her house after that for awhile. Today basicly I didn't do a whole lot, I got up around 9:00 or so to go work with my Dad until around 2:00 or so, then I just came home and did some crap, I was pretty sick so I didn't feel like going to work out today, so I guess I have to do that on Wednesday, and I just went to Merris to help her pack for LA b/c I won't see her for like 3 months...I WILL MISS YOU! I think I am finally making some progress in possiably going back to the Keys for spring break!!! Which is totally awesome b/c that is my home, I miss it! But, other than that nothing really else going on school sucks and I have to go to that tomorrow, and take some quizes that I have no idea whats going on with them. I guess thats about all in my life you can read about for today...
until next time.
PEACE OUT
-Brittany
P.S.-Happy 15th Birthday Kelly, and Happy 16th Birthday Danielle, I love you.

KICK ASS DAY

Fri, 04 Feb 2005 22:03:46 GMT

Today was a great day in my opinion, other than having to get up really early to go to school for a few hours in order to dance...that was about the only downfall. After that around 11 or so, Tyler and I just hung out for a few hours with was really fun :), and now I am just chilling at home trying to figure out what I want to do tonight...but i guess thats really all for today, its a four day weekend and its only friday so i am in the best mood ever. Getting my cell phone tomorrow!!!
xoxo love you all,
Brittany

Good Day

Thu, 03 Feb 2005 00:43:37 GMT

Today was a really good day. Besides going to school lol it was not 1/2 bad...I finally talked to my girl Christina I miss you soo much!! You see Christina is not only one of my best friends but my cousin, we lived together for a total for 3 weeks this summer, and it was a blast! Other than my little cousin Parker making our lives a living hell b/c he thinks he is Jesus, and literally can tell everyone what to do even his own parents it was a great time. Parties were a usual every single night, we were out till like 4 in the morning. I had the time of my life, and of coarse as most of you know Isaac flew to the Keys for a week, which was so much fun! I guess I just had a lot of good memories to look back on today, when I talked to her. Hopefully I will get to see her for spring break in the Keys again, but this time maybe not as wild lol. But, anyways other than that there really isnt' any other news going on. Besides my HUGE crush on a person who I will not name...those who are cloesest to me know who he is. I like him a lot, but I don't know what is going to happen with the entire situation...right now I am just looking forward to spending more time with him, I don't want to rush or jump into anything like I normally do. But, anyways Michelle is finally home for a weekend I am so excited no more horse shows this weekend!!! So finally I can hang out with her and Ashley hopefully! I guess thats all for today.
xoxo
-B to the E Brittany

Sick day

Tue, 01 Feb 2005 01:45:48 GMT

Today was well a very short day I guess. I went home during second period b/c I felt just awful, came home and slept until 5:00. I got up ate some dinner, did some homework talked with some of my wonderful friends lol, and thats about it. But, I am feeling a lot better than goodness! So I will be attending school tomorrow as usual. Anyways, things are going pretty well in my life now I am so happy I am finally getting my cell phone this saturday which is awesome! I have been waiting since ohhh summertime!! Yeah you might wonder how I have been living lol. But, its been alright I am just glad I am finally getting one now you know. Anyways I am so excited b/c I have just been informed that we don't have school this monday which is a major plus b/c it gives me more time to hang out with my friends such as Michelle and Ashely who I have not hung out with over a weekend in forever! Or seems like forever I love you guys! But, anyways other than that nothing else that is new.
Xoxo,
Britt

Figuring things out

Sun, 30 Jan 2005 17:54:12 GMT

Last night I talked with my Mom, Merris, and a variety of different people discussing I guess just the same matters in my life over and over again. I think thats what everyone does, anytime they have a problem people like to talk about it. Even if your the type of person that likes to keep to themselves you at least have to write it down in a journal...like so, or tell at least one of your friends so that they can better help you out in certain situations you couldn't handle by yourself. But, I really realized something when I talked to all my friends or even my Mom in the Keys (who is like one of my best friends even though that sounds stupid) I realized that, I have the best of the best when it comes to my group of friends. I mean yeah we all have our little issues that sometimes people can't stand about one another I am sure I can be the most annoying person to hang out with at times. But, the thing is your friends no matter how much sometimes they can get on your nerves a true friend, will always be there for you no matter what. I have had some things occur in my life that I don't think I could have handled as well, or figured out as well if I didn't have those people to talk to. I would just like to thank I guess my best friends in the entire world that no matter what will always listen to me even if they heard the same story a 100 times Merris, Jamie, Ali, Katie, Marybeth, Ashley, Michelle, lol and yes my Mommy. You have have helped me get through some really tough times thank you so much for everything!
-Brittany

One week

Sun, 23 Jan 2005 23:25:47 GMT

I cried today, I guess you could say sometimes people just need to. I needed to. In a way it gets emotions, thoughts, feelings anything just out of your system. Sooner or later I guess you can start to feel better after this, hopefully it will start to work for me. One week, and how I spent that one week, will determine many desisions for the rest of my life. Maybe thats just my personally opinion. But, I am the type of person that thinks there is only one person in the entire world that was specially made for you. But, what happens if you already found them? What happens if you found them, but you can't be with them? Its amazing to me how you can be so in love with someone and not see them for years, but still think about them everyday. It effects you in ways you can't explain. In a way it gives you a sense of comfort, knowing that no matter what happenes you still have that one person in the world who actually gives a damn about you. But, sometimes the person you thought you were made for, turns out to actually be the person you were made to learn from. After each realtionship a person learns something from it, rather it be something small, or something that can have a huge impact on you...you still learn something from them. And hopefully you are smart enough to learn not to go back into the same situation again. But, sometimes its not that easy everyone always says, "oh you will get over him" but what if their wrong? What if you never do, and spend years trying anything and everything you can to get over that one person who you thought you were meant to be with for the rest of your life.

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY ALI!!!

Fri, 21 Jan 2005 03:51:09 GMT

Today was an ok day, I went to school obviously and it was really good until the last part of the day when people just had some spazz attacks lol and got sent to the office...but no big deal, I guess it just kinda frustrated me and got me into a bad mood. But, I soon got out of it b/c today after school I got ready to go pick up Jamie & to go to Ali's house for us (Jamie N, Jamie L, Brooke, Ali, and myself) to go out to eat for Ali's birthday. So we went out to eat and then went back to Ali's house to watch only the best episode of the OC ever! Dang I love that show...that can turn any day into a good day :) But, other than that I just came home and tried to study last minute for this stupid Candide test...for those of you in Cato's english class you know what I am talking about. But, these days there are really only a few things that seem to be on my mind anymore, and one of them consists of not being able to make up my mind as to what I should do...such as should I give up on the whole situation or just keep trying and hopeing something will come out of it. For those of you who know me the best, you know exactly what I am referring to. But, I don't know we will see how everything goes with that...when people are busy it tends to get into the way of even being able to hang out for even a day over the weekend, which sucks but it also takes some getting used to. I don't think I am ready to give up on it quite yet though...But, anyways I guess its off to bed for me I am pretty tired.
Love always,
Brittany

You Suck!

Tue, 18 Jan 2005 23:25:14 GMT

Hey yet again...its another day, and guess what it was actually a great day! No longer do I worry about the stupid little drama going on at our school. Stupid little rumors that aren't true going around about me. And for the commentor who wrote something about one of my journal entries...next time you have some b/s story and crap to stay to me...confront me, or better yet actually live up to what you say and let me know who you are rather than just not even put a name down because your scared. People are people, human are freaking humans and everyone makes mistakes, so get the hell over it. Your right I need to live up to my actions, and guess what I am! I am fine with everyone except for like one person in my life, and you know what the one person I love to death, but if she can't find it somewhere in her heart to forgive me, or at the most give me 5 minutes of her time to even talk to her about the whole situation, then I can't do anything more than I already have. I love you all to death. I just really think you need to step up whoever you are, and get your story straight before you actually have the nerve as to commit on something, and not even put your freaking name down for it.
-B

People need to grow up

Tue, 18 Jan 2005 03:14:10 GMT

Today was all around pretty boring. I finished up most of my homework, and basicly sat around the house for the most part. Later on this afternoon I went out with my brother, mom, and sister to go test drive out some cars. My brother pretty much found the car he wants, but my Mom is still looking. Anyways then I had to literally rush to my house to get changed for the soccer game, and then pick up Merris on our way out. Then as we are driving towards the school I realize, I am wearing the wrong jersey, and Merris doesn't even have her cleats so we thought we were pretty screwed. With only about 10 minutes to spear lol we actually made it to the school in enough time for our soccer game. Thanks to my brother Richard! Thank you bro! Anyways so for the 2nd time and a row and the 3rd time total I sat out the entire game on the bench not once subsituted in for the 80 minute soccer game. Damn was I pissed, you see it was like freaking 50 outside, and I was freezing my arse off, sitting on a bench forever!!! So at the end of the game you can imagine how pissed off I was at our Coach. She plays who she thinks can win for our team and I respect that however, she was upset simply because I had supposably not shown up for the practices a lot that week. But, I thought as long as I told her I was going to be able to go or wasn't it wasn't a big deal. I would have gone but it was a lot of family things going on, and I just wasn't able to show up to alot of those practices. So anyways at the end of the game to kinda sum it up I quit the team. I really hate starting something and not finishing it but, the women had literally turned something that I used to love doing, into something I hate. I really wish that when next year roles around I will actually have the same drive to play soccer again like I did in the beginning of this year. But, lord knows I will never play for ASA again. No disrespect to anyone, but I guess sometimes some people just don't get along and its just best if you eliminate yourself from the siutation, and in my case that was quitting the soccer team. I guess we will see how things go, but other than that my day pretty much sucked. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.
Until then,
Brittany

Sometimes the past comes back to haunt you

Mon, 17 Jan 2005 01:17:56 GMT

Last summer I had the time of my life, I hung out with all of my old friends from the Keys that I had grown up with since I was in Kindergarten. I was able to practically live with my cousin Christina for about 3 weeks straight. Also being able to spend that much time with my Mom and my little sister was a def. plus. Things were just going great. During that time I was also able to see the one person I think I have ever loved. I spent a week with him, and literally had the time of my life. But, sometimes the past really comes back to haunt you. Decisions that you make that you think were the right ones at the time, turn out to be something you should not have done. I don't have regrets, but I do wish things I did over the summer happened further down the road rather than right then and there. I say this simply b/c I don't have the person who I was so in love with, with me right now. I won't have him with me for a very long time, considering the fact that he lives two states away I don't exactly have the luxury of seeing him whenever I please like most relationships that people have. I think people take for granite what they have, and don't take advantage of the relationships that they have right in front of them. Hopefully, things in that area will be cleared up for me really soon.
Until then,
Brittany

Getting better...

Wed, 12 Jan 2005 04:17:12 GMT

Hey! Today things were not great, but they weren't bad either. I seem to be alright with most everyone, and that makes me happier than ever! But, there are still those who aren't too please with me that I wish I could change, but I can't. I guess we will just see what happens, I think I personally just need to give it sometime. Anyways today I talked to Larry, who I met at this resturant, he is such a sweet guy for all you ladies in Tampa who want one lol. I hadn't talked to him in forever...so that was nice. But, anyways we had our Varsity B-ball game today, and it was really exciting, we were doing really well until the final seconds of the game and someone from the other team got the last point in the net!! We lost by one freaking point. Anyways soccer practice was a waste for me simply b/c my foot hurt like a bitach and I wasn't able to do much if anything. But, anyways I guess that is all for today. Love all of you very much.
xoxo
-B

Life is great, but sometimes it can be a real bitch

Sun, 09 Jan 2005 18:58:04 GMT

Today is just one of those days where you suffer from the aftermath of last nights mistakes. Last night as most everyone knows, was Merris' party. It was a ton of fun and I went with the 7 funnest girls ever. Things turned out to not be as fun as they were in the beginning when I made some mistakes, and for them I am sorry. The only real thing I can do or say to any of my friends that I pissed off at this point is that I am sorry, and just to work on my actions so that they can really see how sorry I truely am. Until then though I will just have to endure the long process of building back friendships, it is not a easy task but I am willing at this point to get my friends back to they way things used to be with them. Other than that Jamie is going to come over for a few hours today and I am excited about that, just b/c its Jamie and she is my best friend. But, until next time.
-<3 always,
Brittany